Leaving April behind and welcoming May

I blinked my eyes and April month is coming to the end already, one day more and I'm stepping into month of May :) April has been a great month for me, despite all dramas and miserable things that happened, it has been great after all. Too many things happened in this month but I'm feeling happy throughout this entire month, minus a few nights where I actually tear, not because of relationship, but some other issues and now, I'm getting used to it already. I learned that sometimes, some things they are not controllable. Let it flow itself and it might be better for everyone. Also, it's great to know that there's someone who actually loves me so deeply, is always here through ups and downs and accepts me completely for who I am.

I'm missing April because:

1st April is when me and hubby clicks together :)

I'm looking forward to May because:

Its my first month anniversary with hubby which falls on the 1st May, can't wait to wish him *giggles*

My internship begins.

A month closer to my birthday and I'm expecting pressie? Not really, just crapping :)

Awaiting to see what's for me on May, good or bad, bring it on.

Notice how the first reason for both months is with hubby in it? Yes, this is how much he mean to me. 

Till then, the next post will be....SOON!

*counting down, 1 day more*

No doubts ♥

Living in a world with a huge number of population...

I've met you and decided to make friends with you

Bit by bit, I let you in my life

I want to know more about you, the good and the bad sides

At the same time, I let you in mine

From a complete stranger to the first HI, then the first SMS and calls came later on

I used my time to understands you more 

And likewise you do the same too

We've used years to know each other

But we were never together

Yet the connection was so strong and the feeling is rather unique

Still, we play it cool, we maintain as friends

We care but we are not an item

We miss but I always keep it inside

We love yet we don't say it

At times where I'm afraid of u telling me it's only a friendship bond

And often enough I would cry when you talks about this and that girl

But pretended I was happy for you, yet silently I wish it's me that you love

Over the times, we confessed

But again, we were not an item

The feelings are impossible to deny

We would SMS day and night and sometimes call

And I feel you, is who I really wants to be with

We both waited and missed chances

Till the 1st of April 2011

We made it

We starts our journey as different status in each others lives

And then I fear of how things would change

Surprisingly, it didn't, and in fact, it got better each day

Hubby,

I gave you my heart and I know you will take good care of it

I let you hold my hands and I'm sure you will keep holding

I let you see my silly and ugly sides and I know you will love me more for that

I tells you every single thing because I want you to know me more than I do

I'm being completely honest to you because there's nothing I can withhold from telling you

I know how you feel for me, I feel it

And thanks for doing every single thing I listed above to me too

I LOVE YOUs will not express my feelings, it's for you to feel

Everyday with you is amazing

And I believe this story of us will keep going on

*counting down to 1st May 2011*

Pretending

If pretending is easy, tears wouldn't fall
If pretending is easy, struggle wouldn't exist
If pretending is easy, there's no stab right through the heart
If pretending is easy, the heart wouldn't ache so much
If pretending is easy, heart wouldn't cry when the face is smiling

Pretending, is never easy. But life goes on. How hard it drags me down, I'll have to stand up strong again and prove to myself that this hard time will be over soon. Nightmare is just a temporary thing. I'm glad ♥ hubby ♥ is here for me through the hard time. He is my sweetest reality during my worst nightmare.

Dealing with you is a waste of time :)

I don't deal with brainless people that have no life other than bitching about people, especially those that know NOTHING.

I don't entertain you by responding to your hate-post because that makes me no difference from you.

I don't make you all jolly by being sad over your childish post.

I don't have the time like you to create drama because I make full use of my time.

I don't bitch about u back because I don't know you and I think you're plain childish.

I don't understand your qualification on bitching me when you don't know about me, most importantly, you never spoke to me before, worse, you never even seen me face-to-face AT ALL.

I don't know how to pretend, therefore I'm not pretending to like you or even hate you because I DON'T KNOW you from top to toe. 

I don't mess with you, but if you wanna mess with me, go ahead :)

You have no life and I feel sorry for u, BUT I have my life and I'm happy with it. Being silence doesn't mean I'm afraid to confront you or satisfying you with your random hatred that comes out from nowhere but it's just that I don't see a point dealing with such drama queen wannabe and attention seeker people. Consider getting a life for yourself rather than shouting for attention all around, because that makes you look rather dumb and desperate *peace*

Perfection

If anybody ask me what is perfection, I'll say: Look at my hubby and me :) 

We made the impossibles possible
We understands each other perfectly
We love each other just the way we needed to be loved
We influences each others life, in a good way of course
We are clear of what we need and what we can give to each other
We are FULLY compatible, from interest to the way we thinks to the way we look at things, to the way we speaks, you name it, we have it
We know what is best for this relationship
We adore each other yet we gives sufficient freedom
We care but we do not have pressure at all
We behaves in a silly manner that no one sees except me and him
We reflect our inner self naturally and comfortably when we are around each other
We smiled and laughed even without saying a word
We are being completely honest and faithful
He's mine, and I'm his ♥


How to not love someone that is so compatible with you, loves u, adores u, do everything and anything for u YET u don't feel any pressure or depressing moments at all? How to not fall for someone who treats u as his princess and fulfills every tiny details that u look for in your dream guy? How to not be with someone who understands you from A-Z and make u the happiest girl alive? It's impossible, and I'm sure, this guy, is my Mr. Right :) Too early to say? We have faith.

True love is like me and u

This guy with the silly face is:

- My best friend
- My companion
- My boyfriend
- My hubby
- My PAST
- My PRESENT, and
- My FUTURE

A complete stranger who then turns out to be my friend, whom I never thought that I will blog about in my life, and now here I am, blogging about him, my special someone. Outsiders might think the happiness that we both have now is gained easily, but it is not. We been through more than what people thinks or sees. We almost broke off our friendship because of my jealousy. We did not just fall in love at this minute and got together the next. Our story is more than all these. I've been in many relationships before, but none of them gives such feelings that he gave.

He gives me security and leave me with no doubts and worries over him.
He never fail to put a smile on my face :)
He sacrifices and gives more than he should.
He made promises and he prove to me those are not empty ones.
He assure me that I'm the only one he wants for now and for upcoming years.
He is not afraid of showing me to those who are close to him, yet, he showed fully affections which was out of my expectation.
He made me feel that I don't have to be pretentious when I'm with him because he truly accepts and loves me for who I am.
He listens to me, to every complains and nags, to every silly and lame jokes I tell.
He never just walk away when we have problems, instead, he solve it there and then with me and he tried his very best to work things out.
He never once leave me feeling lonely or miserable because he's always there for me.
He tells everything and even there is white lies, he will tell the truth in less than an hour.
He understands me completely and prove that he's a guy of his words.
He said he isnt the most romantic person but he have no idea just how much he melted me.
He often teases me, yet, he hold my hands tightly.
And when he couldnt reach me, he called and sent loads of smses, and i remember him telling me how he's afraid it annoys me but he doesnt know this makes me fall deeper for him.
He is fully committed to me and our relationship.

Too many to list out here and some things are meant to be inside the heart.
People might wonder why HIM and why ME? :) And then people might think this relationship isnt going anywhere, but we will prove them wrong. Actions speak louder than words. People can create all sort of lies and stories to ruin our relationship too, it's okay, we know clearly what we stands in each other's heart, we know every tiny bits of this relationship, we are both aiming for the same thing and we are working hard for it. 


Being with him is the best thing of all, this is my perfect relationship, no one is perfect, but to me, he already is :) I'm glad and grateful for having him in my life, for making me feel what love really is all about, for making me feels like a princess living in a fairytale minus the evil part, for making me the happiest girl and smile everyday i woke up and before i off to bed at night.


We are learning to be better for each other, we are growing stronger, we are falling in love deeper, we accepts the goods and flaws, the past and present, and we will definitely love each other more and more each day. This is amazing and blissful.

Thanks hubby for everything. I love u and only u, with all my heart ♥