Restless

Listening to: Aku bukan untukmu by Rossa

So many things is going around

People never seems to be as pure and sincere as they used to be

Everyone starts faking in front of each other

People no longer appreciate what others do for them

Please, for just once, make my life easier for me

Please, for just once, put yourself in my shoes and understand my situation

I'm restless

I just want to live a simple life

And people, stop giving me hard times

I want to be the one whom I used to be

Not by putting a fake smile and face people when I'm feeling shitty inside

Please, don't be selfish anymore

Just once, try to understand the bigger picture

I really appreciate this

Are you an alpha male or metrosexual? Who makes a better boyfriend?

Do u wish that the guys u date would be more like your girlfriends? He would say the right thing at the right time, actually notice that you've had different, more stunning clothing and prepare a deliciously awesome meals just  for the two of u? It sounds almost impossible but is dating a guy who's in touch with his feminine side would make u happy in the long run? Or would u get super tired of fighting with him for your share time in the bathroom? Men, they are completely different from women, and though their appeals may sometimes get on our nerves, these appeals make them seem more macho and stronger. 

Here's the question to the females: Will a man's man make u happy or would u be better off with a guy who borrows your hair product? Which to opt for as boyfriend? An alpha male or metrosexual?

Here's the question to the males: Which categories are u under? What are your positive traits and flaws? What makes u so attractive or less attractive?

DATING AND RELATING
The Metrosexual
PROS: As he gets the whole issue of gender equality, u won't have to convince him that women should not be objectified. He'll do romantic stuff like organize a sunset dinner or wake u up with breakfast in bed. He'll also be happy to choose which updo complement best with your outfits. If you're feeling down, he'll notice it right away and offer offers that will make u melt, without having to be asked. He'll also be able to tell when there's a problem. He'll realise that communication is important for relationship and will even read self-help book to further improve your intimacy.
CONS: In an argument, he will throw in all annoying stuff when u wish he would keep it simple. While other guy you've dated might have a bad fight with u and then move on, u'll find yourself having to reassure him for the next few days or weeks that u still likes him. He's often being emo and too much on feminine sides. U may start to crave for someone who is less appearance-focused instead.


The Alpha
PROS: He won't be so fussy about what u cook for dinner. He loves to party and get adventurous on weekends or staying up all night. When you're with him, he'll make u feel secure, protected, desirable and totally feminine. Hanging out with alpha male may also teach u a lot about self-promote skills and this will benefits when u're out working. As they likes to be in control, he will take care of u - he will RSVP for dinner and etc, and u'll love feeling so protected.
CONS: The alpha male likes hanging out at pubs and might sometimes bore u into stuff like footballs or other cliched male topics. Worse, isn't as sensitive as the metrosexual, he'll never realise it even after hours. He might have trouble communicating or saying "I love u" and if few problem hits, he'll have no idea how to talk it through. When you're with him, you'll feel loved and idolised - he will lift u in his arms and kiss u and get snarly when guy looks at u. This is flattering but it will get u both into problems when its being done too much and often. He thinks u're not independent enough to handle stuff on your own. U might also find yourself competing with him to spare some quality time alone as he'll be too busy with his own activities. And when there is argument, he will go defensive and throw hurtful comments and accusations that doesn't help even a bit. Sometimes u have to stand on the ground and remind him u too have opinion and yours is just as valid as his.


IN THE BEDROOM
The Metrosexual
PROS: He will be sensitive and intense and won't make a big fuss of it if u're not in the mood - he'll be happy to cuddle up and have a meaningful conversation instead. When making love, he won't be in a tearing hurry but he knows how to get u in the mood and not just wanting to rush to his climax. He will be happy to set a romantic ambience and will be turned on by turning u on so he'll be sensitive to your needs.
CONS: You'll get fussy if he over-analyses things and may sometimes wishes he will just make everything simpler, and wilder. 


The Alpha Male
PROS: He will make u feel all women and tell u how sexy u look. He;ll make your love making session passionate and will be able to laugh which means he take things not too seriously on the bed if embarrassing things happen. 
CONS: He might not be a soft kisser as he tends to kiss wildly and also badly. He rush things during the session and though he is easily turned on, u might find yourself having to teach him how to improve further. Sometimes, you'll get frustrated how he doesn't like to cuddle up and when u prefer to cuddles, he thinks he is not pleasing u. When u tell him to be more gentle, he will take it personally and sulk, thinking you're being critical.


LOOKS AND GROOMING
The Metrosexual
PROS: This guy won't hold back on doing everything he can to make him look fantastic. He will work out, use moisturiser, and spend more money on clothes than u do. You'll never have to worry how embarrass he'll look because he will only present the best of himself. Which means when you're out together, you'll feel proud because he will always look groomed and hot! He may also able to refer u to the best hairdresser and won't complain when u spend your entire day looking for your clothes. When you stay over, you won't have to pick your skin care because he have it all. He also looks for high end quality product - Calvin Klein as his hot  underwear.
CONS: Your guy may spend too much blowing his hair and his obsession with look starts to get on your nerves. U may have to fight with him for your time in front of the mirror because he will take too long grooming himself. When you both are out, u may find yourself competing with him to look gorgeous. He is too appearance conscious.


The Alpha Male
PROS: He will do whatever he can that make him look sexy. He will never run u late to an event because he is still fussy on which clothes to put on or how to style his hair. When it comes to clothes and grooming, he's not hung up. He'll be ready to leave for movie and will be totally cool if u couldn't be bothered to shower or prefer staying in your cargo pants instead of dressing up. He'll be happy spending a lil extra money buying you something lovely to wear or your girlfriends their drinks.
CONS: He might not always look at his best, unlike the metrosexual . If you're going out to some special occasion, u might have to nag him to put on something more proper. You might also have to nag him to wash his hair more often or shower. Over time, u might get tired of all these, feeling like you're more like his mother rather than GF, wishing he could act like his age and get himself together when it comes to personal hygiene and right dress code.


HOW TO READ THE SIGN?
THE METROSEXUAL: 
-Perfect hair
-Expensive looking outfits
-Wear expensive and sexy underwear
-Well shaved
-Talks about what's on cinema


THE ALPHA MALE:
-Just got out of bed hair
-Faded and ripped jeans
-One day growth
-Lots of mates nearby
-Drinks just any beer
-Talks about sports a lot


So, which male are u? And which is the type of boyfriend you're looking for? Hope this helps both males and females to understand yourself or your other half better :) 


P/S: I spent all my time doing survey and typed this! Not by copy and paste! 

With love,

Renee A

Perfection VS change

What is the definition of perfection? As stated from websites:

- Being complete of its kind and without defect or blemish

- A state of completeness and flawlessness

- A quality, endowment, or acquirement completely excellent; an ideal faultlessness; especially, the divine attribute of complete excellence

Whatever, it's all nonsense! Because...nobody is perfect! No matter how hard we try to be, no matter how we change, no matter how well we watch ourselves, nobody is really perfect, or some may say, perfection is on the eyes of beholder, true enough :)

So, if perfection is on the eyes of beholder, why bother asking your love ones or friends to change? If their personality is the reason why you're first attracted to, but why after time to time, we started to get anxious and demand them to change? From this to that, from that to this?

This is the question I'll never know the answer, I'm sure many of us don't. Human nature is all I can conclude.

If nobody is perfect, stop asking people to change to reach your level of perfection, it's impossible, they might reach your so-called perfection level, but then they will not be them, make sense? If you yourself is not perfect, why bother asking people to change for u? Tolerance is different, it is not changing :) 

In one's life, we might experienced all these before, either to families, friends or lovers, we try our very best to please them and end up being in a miserable life. Why? Simply because we feel there is a need to change, so perhaps we will be better, yes, i agree, change to be better, but not changing yourself entirely please. This is not healthy. We can't please everyone, let say initially we are A, then we changed to B, but during phase B, some people might like us, some might hate, then slowly, we change to phase C, and again, the same thing happens! See how the circle goes? It's never ending! So why bother even pleasing everyone when u can never please everyone? 

Live your life the way u want it, change if it's for better, but never change YOURSELF throughly, no matter for who :) Everyone is unique in their own way, trust me, this is true!

Conclusion: Please yourself and respect those you cares! Life is too beautiful to keep stressing yourself dearies!

With love,

Renee A

Maybe, it isn't the truth

Sometimes things u see might not be true, sometimes things u read might not be real, somethings things u hear might be just rumours, sometimes it is just a misunderstandings. People can always cover their intended messages in another way, so that it will not appear obvious, or to make themselves look rather strong enough to handle the worst, as long as they can make people around them happy, this is what I do...

With love,

Renee A

Not yet an ending, but a good beginning...

This year is gonna be a real busy one, with college, work, everything...

College
Will be learning how to run an event, write press releases, news letter, design, everything. And once Sem 4 ends, will be going for intern, then back to Sem 6 once intern ends :( OMG, coming to think of it, I don't think I have much time to rest..

Work
As usual, modeling and freelance, but hmmm, I thought of maybe quitting this field, maybe do something else, something I find more passion with I suppose? :) I need money to support myself, for everything..

Time
Despite how busy I am, I need to spare some time for myself, my family and also someone important :) Both of us will be very busy, he will be even busier than me, as usual, but yeah, time management...I promise u I will plan my time wisely k, I won't be so bad till ignore u for sure, u too yeah :) I think I need to care for my family more, there is a certain period where I'm extremely busy and always moody that I don't talk much and communicate with them, so I need to change, I want my family to hear my laughters always, they want me to be happy...

Stress & emotions
Learn to handle my emotion and stress. Life can be such a bitch sometimes but let it be bitchy for just a short moment, then make it sweet, because life is the greatest gift. Someone once said I'm always depress, partly of it are true, maybe cause I feel lonely, but I will learn, from every aspects...

Health
Needs lots and lots of improvement and handle with care...I can't let all those tiny matters influence my health condition anymore. All my friends and family said the same thing to me, which is I look very very pale and sick. Yes, I know, I will take good care from now on. Don't worry about me. Like my tagline always says: I'm strong :)

Love & relationship
It will be good, no matter how many times it fails, it will end up being good, I have confidence in it. But yeah, let it flow by itself.

Friendship
I screwed some of it, and I'm gonna fix it. I want my friends back, but of course, those who worth it.

Hurt
To those I hurt before, in whatever aspects, I'm deeply sorry.

Family
Daddy and mummy, I'm sorry if I've been rude to u all before, sometimes my temper is beyond my control, but I will learn to be more considerate next time, I hope u will be proud for having me as daughters, I love u both, deeply! For the past one month, I know I didn't accompany u both much, but I will now :)


I misses my grandma :( I wants to see her everyday, but she is in Klang. Once a week perhaps?




Too many things I have to learn, I'm already 19, I need to learn, I need to control my emotion and stop being depress, people worry about me, I shouldn't make them worry. So, in 2011, I will try my best to fix stuff. I will! :D


To my love: It's nice to have u :) Be good and I will always be by your side, this I promise...always remember our fairytales and what we talked about...

Deserves

-Everyone deserves equal chances, no matter how wrong that person had been, he or she might change as time proves everything-

I have faith

With love,

Renee A

It's not about blaming, it's about understanding

Good luck and all the best :)

It's true that "It was only just a dream"

I treat you as my friend still, I believe u have your own positive traits, you're not a bad person, just that you need someone right to guide you out from this, someone that you're willing to let her do so and you're willing to accept with full heart.


Thanks for everything, truly appreciates it.

*smiles*

It's only a dream

So many friends around me broke up lately, either because of third party, or its their insufficient understanding and compatibility. Break up hurts but we will grow up from it. Never waste time on someone who's not worth it at all, never drop tears for someone who doesn't care, never care for someone who cares for him or herself more than u, never give your heart to someone who take it for granted, never have faith on someone who misuse it, because all of us deserve the best for ourself. Money can't buy love, money and goods is only a sign of affection, but giving your heart is a commitment. 


I've experienced it before, of course it hurts a lot, but at the end of the day, u might learn something, u might even found out the truth, the truth that people have been telling u all this while but you're too blinded by love and sweet talks, and this is a precious lesson.


No matter how people hurt u, be strong, because being happy with life is the sweetest revenge, no point being upset about it if it's over, if that person cares, he or she will come back to u. Lies can be made perfectly sweet, we fall for sweet stuff, we are blinded by it, we refused to listen, we fight with our instincts to force ourself to trust that person, we find reason for them, we tried to figure out why the person we love so much would hurt us in such way...


I never fill myself with hatred, I only fills it with doubts, but I find it pointless to figure out the answer now, because we have to move on :) 


I have so much more to express here, but I guess I don't have to now, it's enough said.


PAST is past tense
NOW is present tense
LATER is future tense


After few Mr or Ms Wrong, we will definitely find THE ONE, I still have faith in love, because someone shows me it does exist...

With love,

Renee A

A girl

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how

long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all

fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than

that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. 

Wait for the guy who ... kisses

your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he

is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

The above are all true...

Hands up or hands down?

Okay, this is a random post, I have no idea what to update still, so I landed on this effing random post of mine. Just a little thought :) Have fun reading.


Nowadays, i came across many friends that tells me how a female is or how they will attract the males, like through the way they behave, the way they think and look at life, how they dress up, and surprisingly, some even told me facts (this is what they called as facts, which i certainly don't agree) to live a better relationship with your other half, or to attract guys.

1. Girls always relies on the boyfriend, especially financially, like nags them to get expensive stuff, or expect the guys to pay everything. 

My view: Hey, not all girls are like this okay! Girls nowadays are way more independent compare to last time, we can support ourselves better than you think! Yes lah, maybe guys will still pay for outings for meals and movies, but not everytime, cause we girls pay too! And since we do, means not everytime also guys contribute money only lo! :)

2. Girls always likes to receive gifts, especially expensive ones! But they don't give back people, or if they do, the gifts usually is cheap!

My view: So.Not.True. Everyone loves receiving gifts, I mean who doesn't love expensive ones, all of us do right! Boyfriend sometimes will get the girlfriend branded stuff, sometimes we girls do that too, but when we don't, it simply doesn't mean we are stingy, but we pay more attention to various aspects and we even HANDMADE stuff for the boyfriend! Isn't that sweeter and more thoughtful? At least we put efforts in making it rather than buying it from the store!

3. Girls SHOULD act dumb sometimes because guys will love us more.

My view: HANDS, LEGS, FINGERS ALL DOWN! I certainly don't think girlfriend should act dumb because by acting dumb, is it true that boyfriend will fall deeper for us? No way. If we have the brain, we have it, so please accept the fact that we do! We are not bimbo! Any guys that likes to take a girl out with only looks but not brain? And whenever the guy say something, the girl will have to act like she is so impressed? OMG! And my friend said : Girls har, must be dumb sometimes one, only can reflect the knowledge of your boyfriend ma. What for?! Guys should be proud to have such intelligent girlfriend okay! Why must act dumb le? Do u want a girl that keeps silent when u discuss about certain matter or gives u opinion? I know how guys sometimes only need a pair of ears to listen, not the big mouth to talk, we understand this, this is call being understanding and considerate, nothing to do with being or acting dumb at all.

4. Girls, slow and lousy driver.

My view: Eh, i drive 140km/h sometimes, this is slow? And I never met any accident yet! I don't hit the brake pedal suddenly or simply cut people's lane okay! *touchwood* Enuf said. (maybe I should slow down, everyone said I don't drive like a P license driver)


5. Girls only know how to waste money on cosmetics la, branded stuffs, clothing, etc....

My view: Nonono. We don't buy only these stuff. This is what you guys see. We pay for car installment, insurance, expenses and the list goes on (Yes, I paid for all listed above). 


6. Girls expect guys to be mind reader!

My view: Errr, this one I have to agree, but guys do too right? :)

7. Girls that follows Japanese style are "lalas" or "ah lians"

My view: Go bang wall pls! Go and figure out the definition of  "lala" and "ah lians" first!

8. Lastly, girls should have 34C-23-34. And if you're nothing like Leah Dizon or Angela Baby, you're far from being perfect.

My view: My body figure is not nice I admit, but if you're with a girl just because of her body, please, u might as well get her to do plastic surgery and YOU'LL PAY FOR IT! Even my face also ok ok only, so what? Outlook matters but not 100%, guys, get this right. Or all girls have to do plastic surgery, inject botox, make her boobies bigger only consider attractive? If so, then what for God created us differently? If everyone went for surgery to look like Leah and Angela Baby, then everyone down the road will be having the same piece of face. So stop complaining how imperfect your girl is, stop looking at her flaws and start looking at why she is beautiful instead. All complains will only make her self-esteem lower, seriously!



Whoa, coming to the end of this post, I realized how long this is, and this post is so COLORFUL :) Me likey! Anyway, drop some comments if u read this, I appreciate it! Nights!

With love, 

Renee A